It's been so long since i've taken the time to come on here. I guess it's not even that, I more than likely forgot this page even existed. For some reason however i felt the need to come on here, so i loaded up the webpage, typed in my username (which i only guessed, yes, it's been that long haha) and password and updated a few things!
So, what's been going on with me lately?
I'm going to start with the educational side of my life. I dropped out of my university course. I was studying Multimedia Technology at Leeds Met University. I guess it seemed a lot different on paper to how it actually turned out. Finding myself in a place where, i wanted to give the course a shot to show to my mum that i actually was putting effort into it and i guess the urge to make her proud. She's the only person in my life who i never want to seem like i have let them down, she wanted/expected me to go to university so.. i did, gave it my best shot and it didn't work out. Not on that course at least. I sat down and talked about it with her and told her i wasn't happy at all and i was far behind on work and it was too much of an effort to put my heart into something which i guess i didn't love! Fortunately i've found a course which is more "me"! Entertainment Management! I start in September, actually really looking forward to it, i guess because i've had experience in some of the concepts on the course such as promoting shows, it's something i know i love, i know i will enjoy!
I got a summer job (wooooo), working at TGI Fridays in Leeds, i actually love it there. The people i'm working with are really nice and i've made a sweet new friend out of it. The dudes name is Ross, he's in a pop punk band like i am, such a good guy!
Speaking of pop punk bands, i'm in a band called "We Don't Dance To Love Songs" google it! I'm having such a good time writing music with 3 amazing friends. It's something which i've always dreamed about, being in a band that actually does something, actually gets out there and gives it there all. I know it will take time but i really do believe we have something here, you know when you get a feeling about a certain band that are starting out "oh there going to be big next year" i kinda have that feeling about us. I don't know what it is, i think it may have something to do with the honesty of the band. We're all in it for the right reasons. The music we are playing is all influenced on the music we grew up listening to. The summer time memories kicking about in your back garden listening to music and having a BBQ with your friends. The times you go out skateboarding, just to feel the wind in your hair, the freedom of having no other care in the world apart from yourself and the piece of wood with four wheels under your feet. Knowing the feeling of love and knowing that it is out there somewhere and the excitement of finding that certain person your going to spend the rest of your life with. I'm looking forward to the next few years, i'm still young, i'm still learning, lets hope it goes well!
I had a girlfriend for 9 months, that ended in May/June of 2007, so its now been a year since i've taking any interest in a girl. Or at least one that has blossomed into something, i've had the odd crush on people but it seems that because it came so easy the first time i'm expecting it to do the same this time and i don't know how to act! I guess i miss it and it'd be nice to have someone to share everything with, someone who will always listen on the other end of the phone, even if they're not speaking. My best friend Tom and his girlfriend, although they argue on the phone and she sometimes goes in these pathetic moods (haha) seem to be so in love its amazing! I'm not the type of guy who would just settle for anything, i wouldn't go out on a night just to look for a girl to "hook up with" i'm more into the special moments that make things unique, special and memoreable, i'd choose love over lust anyday! The thought that there is someone out there is really exciting though, i guess i just need to learn how to let myself be open to the concept of another relatonship. I don't know if that is explained well though, what i mean is, there have been moments where i have known someone likes me and i've not acted upon it because either it seemed like it wasn't the right time or it isn't happening how it did before. I guess its best off explaining what i felt before... i instantly knew that i'd be with my ex when we first started talking, it was weird, i had such a determination to make it happen and luckily enough, it did and it was so easy! I just have to realise that nothing can be the same and different situations will bring different outcomes!
It's 1.23am at this point and i feel i have to write more but i don't know what else to talk about just yet, i'm not tired, i'm logged on and my eyes aren't hurting yet (besides the redness due to hayfever)!
My best friend is moving to Leeds, ask me how excited i am? "how excited are you steffen?" VERY! He's just the best guy in the world, i share so many amazing memories with him its unreal, i don't think he knows how much he means to me as a friend! We met when i lived in Spain, going to the same school for a few years and from day one it just kept getting better! For new year 07/08 we went to New York together and stopped in a Marriott Hotel, waking up each day and just grabbing a cab/limo/subway to manhatten and seeing the best city i've ever been to and i have travelled so so many places in my short 19 year life to date! I know when he gets here it'll be so much fun, apparently he won't be living that far away from me either so we'll be able to go skate and if my band gets going he'll be able to come on tour and do merch etc haha, you see, i have it all planned out!
This will do for now, i'll probably write more tomorrow haha!